I am convinced that doubting the taper is a part of the taper.
This happens to me every time.
I do what I am supposed to do, but I still find holes in what I did.....it is really easy to find holes.....really easy.....
I didn't pay enough attention to my nutrition.
Maybe these are too close together.
I didn't make time for my sports chiro this week.
I am not packed yet.
I didn't prep for wind.
Maybe I am not ready yet.
I keep on feeling like I am getting a cold.
Maybe I am getting sick.
I can't get sick.
I haven't done speed work.
Can't get sick.
These are too close together.
Our back carbon race wheel cracked. Great.
All3 replaced my wheel cause they are awesome. What if they are tubulars and I get a flat and I can't change it.
Just call them and ask Kacie, and then you won't have to freak out.
But as george says, it gives me somthing to worry about.
It might rain, and I will get blisters. Yuck.
Bu working through these doubts in my mind is what I need to do. I have to convince myself that I am AM ready and I have to solve these problems in my head. It is a part of my race prep. Not my favorite part, but it is actually really important.
Then I have these flashes of .......
I am ready for this!
I have done this twice already, and I know exactly what needs to be done!!
And I LOVE this distance. Love it!
And I am SO lucky I got through this training cycle ready and healthy!
I am really strong right now.
The sickness is probably just allergies, and I'll just get extra sleep and be fine.
I have done the work, and I can't wait to cash in on it!
Rest rest rest Kacie! The work is done!
Basically, by race day, I have to balance these two side of me and my thoughts.
This post actually makes me sound just a little crazy.....but it is what goes through my head...and this is before I even have dreams about the race!
Yup, those are real thoughts alright :) Aside from the wheel issue I can vouge for them haha.
ReplyDeleteNot ready for wind or rain either. All week it has been 10-20mph winds out of the north. Meaning, cold air and high waves. The wind has been shifting a bit from the east lately... which would suck because the only nice long straight away is east on rt 113.
Sigh, time to shut our minds off and trust in our training :)
See you this weekend!!!!
Are you going to be around after carpool for a bit again tomorrow?? Want to give you a big hug and good luck / psych up talk :D
ReplyDeleteI don't think you sound crazy at all! :) If you are, then I've been there! :) Can't wait to meet you this weekend and cheer you on!
ReplyDeleteSounds like taper gremlins to me...which means you are right where you should be!!!
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