Motivation--sometimes it wears thin. All day long Monday, everything on me hurt and I just wanted to sleep and sleep and sleep. So, I got home from school, and went to sleep for an hour. I am not a napper at all, so when I woke up, I just wanted to go back to sleep. I mean, seriously, I felt awful mentally and physically.
Of course, it was only saturday that I was telling TyTy, "it doesn't matter if you WANT to run, or if you feel GOOD running, it matters that you run." Great advice Kacie. Came back to haunt me 48 hours later, when I didn't want to do any of it.
But then, there is this guy in my head:
So, of course, I went to the pool. Swam a miserably and embarrassingly slow 2500 that I was mortified to put into my training peaks for my coach to see. Yeah, it was that bad. But I did.
Then, I went to bed , and got up super early to get my run in from 5:30-6:30. Yuck. On a treadmill because it was raining. Double yuck. And my headphone buzzed loudly in my ears. Triple yuck. Cant think of anything else to get to a quad yuck, but I feel like I earned it.
Why so yuck? Because I don't feel like it. I love all of the support I have from my friends and family, but sometimes I just don't feel like it, and I mean I REALLY don't feel like it.
But if I have learned anything from achieving so many goals that I once thought impossible for me, it is that you DO have to suck it up buttercup. There really are not many excuses that get you out of a workout--at least not if you really want to reach that goal. And, well, I have a lot of goals that I want to reach. And they keep getting bigger--which means that the dedication is even more important than my motivation.
Quick review to myself of WHY I must stay dedicated:
Next Thursday, this will be a race effort:
Three weeks from Saturday is my longest run EVER:
Less than two months until the Goofy:
And Ironman St. George is in 5.5 Months:
My amazing friend TyTy told me this weekend that she believed I can do anything I put my mind to. I must agree. I have to agree. I wouldn't do this stuff if I didn't believe in myself. BUT--it doesn't mean I want to do every workout or I don't get tired or overwhelmed by it all. I do. It is hard. But anything in life has its ups and downs. Anything worth doing anyway.