Of course, it was only saturday that I was telling TyTy, "it doesn't matter if you WANT to run, or if you feel GOOD running, it matters that you run." Great advice Kacie. Came back to haunt me 48 hours later, when I didn't want to do any of it.
But then, there is this guy in my head:
So, of course, I went to the pool. Swam a miserably and embarrassingly slow 2500 that I was mortified to put into my training peaks for my coach to see. Yeah, it was that bad. But I did.
Then, I went to bed , and got up super early to get my run in from 5:30-6:30. Yuck. On a treadmill because it was raining. Double yuck. And my headphone buzzed loudly in my ears. Triple yuck. Cant think of anything else to get to a quad yuck, but I feel like I earned it.
Why so yuck? Because I don't feel like it. I love all of the support I have from my friends and family, but sometimes I just don't feel like it, and I mean I REALLY don't feel like it.
But if I have learned anything from achieving so many goals that I once thought impossible for me, it is that you DO have to suck it up buttercup. There really are not many excuses that get you out of a workout--at least not if you really want to reach that goal. And, well, I have a lot of goals that I want to reach. And they keep getting bigger--which means that the dedication is even more important than my motivation.
Quick review to myself of WHY I must stay dedicated:
Next Thursday, this will be a race effort:
Three weeks from Saturday is my longest run EVER:
Less than two months until the Goofy:
And Ironman St. George is in 5.5 Months:
My amazing friend TyTy told me this weekend that she believed I can do anything I put my mind to. I must agree. I have to agree. I wouldn't do this stuff if I didn't believe in myself. BUT--it doesn't mean I want to do every workout or I don't get tired or overwhelmed by it all. I do. It is hard. But anything in life has its ups and downs. Anything worth doing anyway.
Quad yuck--whiny husband. I'm feeling better, too, though. :-)
ReplyDeleteSo, here's a little secret: Sometimes when I am running, and I really, really, really just want to stop and walk or turn around and go home and sit on my couch, I think, "Would Kacie stop and walk here?" And then I keep running! Your experiences, dedication, and good attitude are very inspirational.
ReplyDelete(Although it's good to know you are human, too! ;-))
I love Kelly's comment! That will be my new motivation as well :)
ReplyDeleteKacie, you are one amazing woman. I truly believe that you can, and will, do anything you set your mind to. In all the years I have known you, I have never seen you not accomplish your goals. In fact, you usually surpass them!
That's why it came as no surprise when you told me about the ultra and all these other super impressive runs and races you are doing or are hoping to do. If anyone can achieve these goals, I know it's you!
Keep thinking positively and pushing ahead. Some days are bad, but always know that not all days are and, most likely, your next run or swim or even the next day will be better. Everyone has to have some off or down days to make the great ones seem that much better :)
Stick in there! We are all rooting for you!
Love,
Erin (Ty Ty)
WOW!
ReplyDeleteI am really touched. Seriously. I was talking to another friend recently who does ironmans, and we were saying how much easier it is to go do the things that are HUGE and EXCITING. It is the day to day stuff that wears you down. The medium length runs. Being tired and getting up early after working out late.
I seriously appreciate the support!! I honestly do love all of this craziness, but I too have days where I doubt it, and think it would be SO much easier just to stay home and relax.
I really really appreciate and take to heart your kind words. They mean a lot.